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Saturday, 31 December 2011

I'm sorry but I need to rant a little bit here. You were one of my best friends and I thought you were different...but in the end, you stabbed me in the back just like the others. However, it was my fault I guess because I thought once upon a time, if you put your heart and soul into something, things would be perfect. How naive was I back then? While you moved on and thrust the dagger into my chest, I had to deal with the piece of myself that was gone. Where were you when I needed you fucking most? Especially last year? Nowhere to be seen and heard beyond the superficial surface...I bet you didn't even have a clue. Now, you got something to say to me? Please. Fuck. Off.

Thursday, 06 May 2010

Favorite Female Vocalists

Hyo Rin (Sistar)
Ayaka
Utada Hikaru
Christina Aguilera
W&Whale
Fergie
Clazziquai (Horan)
Younha

Tuesday, 27 April 2010

Pied Beauty

Glory be to God for dappled things --
  For skies of couple-colour as a [brinded]¹ cow;
    For rose-moles all in stipple upon trout that swim;
Fresh-firecoal chestnut-falls; finches' wings;
  Landscape plotted and pieced -- fold, fallow, and [plough]². 
    [And áll trádes, their gear and tackle and trim.]³

All things counter, original, spare, strange;
  Whatever is fickle, freckled (who knows how?)
    With swift, slow; sweet, sour; adazzle, dim;
He fathers-forth whose beauty is past change:
        Praise him.

Tuesday, 23 March 2010

So things are looking up again for me again. Despite the unexpected workload, the fears of the uncertainty of the future, the blackout during spring, and my grandfather landing into the hospital again...things are a bit frightening...Maybe it's the good weather and maybe my positive thinking...and maybe even my feelings for God, that God is within me, not with me.

So...I have a dilemma...I'm not sure if I should do this workload over the summer in order to get published... I know it would get me into grad school but I really just don't have the passion nor the energy to continue working with Dr. Tomie. But, I know that I want to work with Dr. Abela. I'm ready to give my all for this lab because it's so related to future I would like.

For everything else, I know now that I can do this. I know I can.